Girls are truly no longer smiling, a friend of mine just
opened the biggest furniture, fashion and food outlet in Lekki and Ikeja axis
of Lagos, I was totally stunned at the
combination, the team and I had to sharply change her name to triple threat with
a bang (TTB) and this my girl still has a 9-5 ‘fortune 500’ job. I really need
to start selling something or doing something extra. I need to make extra cash,
this my salary cannot fund my travelling around the world fantasies but my head
has never brought up any idea that can fetch money, I guess I’m only good at my
job and of course thinking about one man, whose alter ego is in love with me.
I have been in love with Tola since forever, he’s been my
back and forth lover, the truth is I am even scared to call him that in public
before he tells me he has never asked me out or something worse. I doubt I can
survive if he embarrasses me but who am I deceiving, I’m just his occasional
lover, he’ll probably run off with some ‘over-woke girl’ when he’s ready to
walk down the aisle and give me a sub story, that’s if he even considers me
worthy enough for an explanation but he’s not a total ‘kill joy’, he has his seasons
though my friends think he looks at me with ‘tender eyes….’ I have never
interpreted his stares that way, all I see is a man who hiding under his alter
ego to give me false hope of a forever that may never see the sun kiss the
earth.
Shade was super tired of hearing me say anything about Tola,
she thinks I should talk to him about it, in her words it’s better to know
where you stand, it’s a the first step to moving on and giving better men a
chance to blow your mind but bikonu (please) how do you twenty-first century
children ask men out???????????????? I tried, I really t-r—i—e—d, the words were
not just coming out, this was two years ago and for some crazy reason I feel I
should try it now, its 2-0-1-8 and let’s just say social media has helped make
me a ‘passive wokee’. I told Shade I was going to see him and she didn’t even
let me finish before she yelled ‘‘I think Tola is either secretly married or
has a girlfriend’ no one ignores a semi good girl like you for this long, leave
him alone aah’’. I laughed and then tears rolled down my eyes it was a quick
slide from happy to sad, she hugged me and for the first time I saw how sorry
she was for my ‘love life’ that’s if what I have qualifies to bare that title.
I sincerely love T-o-l-a and he has told me severally ‘he
likes me a lot too’. I know he’s busy with work and career advancement, that’s
why he doesn’t call and check-up as often as……………….. here I go again making
excuses for him, that’s one thing I have perfected over the years, Shade once
called what I share with Tola an ‘excusashionship’. I brought out the ring I
bought to propose to Tola and Shade almost passed out. She begged me not to do it in public so if he
declines, I don’t get the embarrassment of my destiny! We hugged, she started
to cry too and she made me promise I wouldn’t do anything stupid, if he turned
me down.
I got the best face beat of my
life and was about to slide into my car and drive when Shade chased me into the
cab she already ordered, I was a hundred percent sure she thought he’ll decline
but I was somehow excited and hopeful. I landed in Tola’s house and the shock
on his face could give an African parent a heart attack, he was watching the
latest season of ‘How to get away with murder’ fortunately I hadn’t seen it so
we snacked and watched, one of his friends came to spoil the moment by visiting
and to my greatest surprise, Tola asked me to come say hi to him in the sitting
room, I was feeling like a wife already, I landed back on his bed and let the
guys continue their talk but instead of watching the series, I decided to read
his messages, some were from random girls seeking his attention, he wasn’t
giving them any green light but was sure leading them on but nothing major and
somehow I decided to read mother’s conversation and to my greatest surprise she
asked him if he had used his anti-retroviral drug!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I started to run temperature,
vomit and stool all at once, I cast my mind to the conversation I heard on
radio, the presenter actually said Nigeria has the largest number of HIV
positive humans In the world and I basically laughed it off, wait when was he
going to tell me? At this point the
series was doing the watching, I couldn’t wait to run away from this devil in
human flesh, maybe that’s why he was hesitant, first I need to take a
test just to be double sure.
Tola came in, he wanted to feed
me from his cup, I faked a sneeze and while I closed my eyes to cough heartily,
he had knelt down and asked me the question I had been waiting for all my
life……I stared into his eyes and wondered, what crime my ancestors had
committed for this demon in human form to want to destroy me but something in
me still felt like hugging him and saying YES!!!!!!
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